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[Jan. 30th, 2009|06:31 pm] |
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so i am going to briefly touch on the events of last night because i simply cannot contain my terrified excitement. i know it's all been said before but this time it's just very fucking different. last night i had the most REAL conversation i have had with nathaniel in years. we yelled, and then we fucked, and while we were fucking we talked and we cried, and we got together and we worked it out. now i know i'm being really fucking cryptic but this is for him, it's always all for him, and while we all have ours faults nathaniel has his and i have mine and he is sticking by me while i do this because i need him i really do i have always needed him but i have to go and get ready so i can hop on the train and spend the night with him and fuck and suck and love him all fucking goddamn night i am going to soak him up the best i can you just watch me you all just fucking watch me and see how good my shit gets. |
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[Jan. 29th, 2009|09:42 pm] |
i have desperately loved nathaniel since i met him, and he's not going anywhere, over my goddamn dead fucking body. he will always be the last thing to come out of my mouth. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2009|02:16 am] |
nathaniel hate's me, and i hate myself so at least we are all in agreement. but no really, every time i talk to nathaniel i feel like crying, i feel like crying now so i might as well. i freaked out because nathaniel wouldn't give me his myspace password because i think he talks to girls and i just can't stand it. i want him to want me like i want him and like he used to. and goddamn, i know its hard cause i'm like a fuck up of the worst kind it's just part of me is afraid to get close to people because i'm afraid that they are going to leave.
his name still lingers, maybe lactates on my tounge |
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[Jan. 19th, 2009|03:53 pm] |
sam is like dead because of it.
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[Dec. 28th, 2008|03:42 pm] |
leslie tells me living well would be the best revenge, and i think she's right.
four more days until well, y'know. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2008|11:18 pm] |
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life is grand. i am a bartender at the cajun queen but i think everybody there hates me, but not really. and i have two new dudes in my life, its sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet |
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[Nov. 12th, 2008|08:15 pm] |
i want to do everything different. maybe then, |
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